Arguing with the Holy Spirit....

My Complications

Blocked Understanding

It took me until late in life, but I finally learned the Holy Spirit wanted me to witness for my own benefit, and incidentally for others. I argued a long time with the Holy Spirit over that issue before an understanding came to me. The reason turned out to be I was asking about others instead of myself. The Holy Spirit was not going to tell me or even acknowledge anything about others. 

All good things come down
 from the Father of Lights

Finally I realized everything Jesus told us to do was for our own benefit. Simple, but clouded by my complications. As for others, that was the concern of those individuals and the Holy Spirit, or whatever spirit they believe in. Only the Holy Spirit convicts and that is not my jurisdiction. Like, was it Peter I think. Jesus told Peter that what He, Jesus, said about John, what has that to do with Peter?

This realization about myself was a great release. Funny, curious now it seems to me,  how I could miss by such a large a mark so widely. Everything Jesus tells us to do is for our own personal, individual benefit. Forgiveness is not first for the forgiven,  it is for the forgiver. How deep and vast is the simple. 

I even remember saying at one time the it was we who were complicated, God, deep and vast, was simple. There is more to everything than we realize. After these intellectual struggles, I faced how critical the fact of faith really is. Faith, whatever one's is in, is all anyone of us really have. So if someone believes in nothing, then nothing is what very likely they would have. It is in the knowing that is the most terrible of all difficulty.