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Life in the Breech

I had no idea how I got to be anywhere I was, but it was what it was and somewhat comfortable, provided one did not overly explore. I was finally given the high sign  to leave altogether and it got me kicked out. As it was, was precisely in the altogether as that turned out in the end. I hate it when I get this cute. Would anyone? Hung up by their heels totally in the stark? If one does not believe in God then they will just have to be their own god themselves.

space & time seen only in the unseen

I find it hard to break away from the flesh. I want to keep on going and changing, gaining just as I thought I was doing ever since birth. But everything changed so dramatically on the other side of fifty when the truth was my appearance was even changing, decaying day by day and still I held on and held on.....until I found myself locked into an inescapable  definition of forever......

Arhur Koestler

 Language can become a screen which stands between the thinker and reality. This is the reason why true creativity often starts where language ends.

QUESTION?

What did Jesus mean, or infer when, after healing someone, said go and sin no more? 

The implication is that sickness is a sin. That is not something I ever considered. Apparently very few ever have either. The answer could lead to something very interesting in projective attempts.

Everything God tells us is.....

for Our Own Benefit...

because God hates sin but He loves the sinner. God hates the demons that torment even the most extreme doings of evil doers. Again, God does not hate the demon possessed but their demon possessors. This is why He sent His Son... to those who needed Him more so than those already saved.   

My Greatesr Condern

I regret the lack of respect among many to improve awareness of the unseen and adopt the seen as gaining their primary attention.

There is greater power I am convinced in the unseen than focusing on the constant higher regard for the seen.   

My Problem with Evil

It always bothered me that I was not supposed to hate evil doers. I was not aware at the time but I parked my reaction right behind divine hatred where I did not have to deal with it.. It did not occur to me that I myself was not divine. But, wasn't God angry? How quickly I find myself back in a loop.

I am what I do

Like a Tree

Known by its' fruit

It may be alright for God to get angry but it is not alright for me. I do not want to beccome even slightly angry because it is not merely a loss of composure but it is consumptive. It can take me over and I become what I oppose. Every single one of Jesus' commandments is for my own benefit.

Hate hides behind fruit of its' spirit

Hate is Known by its' spirit

When ever someone does something hateful, and even the deepest possible of all that is hateful, it is better not to give a tongue to the devil for a good reason. 

Love must not greet hatefulness with consuming hate but with the spirit of love. Spirit to spirit the spirit of love must dominate hate in every way. Feeding hate with more hate fuels the fires further.   

Only the spirit of forgiveness will put the fires of hate out forever. This is the hardest for many to accept even tho it is for our own particular benefit. It is the spirit of hate that is the evil, not those who have been taken over and consumed by the spirit of hate. 

Wrestling with My Faith

He Did It for Me 

I am presently in a personal struggle misunderstanding the idea of duplicating Christ on the Cross. I always felt that when Jesus died and was victorious over death it was so that He stood alone as the last sacrifice

. This was His Holy Honor, His unique calling directly and singularly from the Holy Father Himself.

Jesus represents forgiveness and love, and He urges we seek His peace. The peace, His peace, that He alone can give. I always thought the cross was empty for this reason. 

I believe everyone speaks for their own benefit and that everyone should work out their own salvation themselves, as my granzemother often said. That is what I am doing, objectifying my beliefs by writing my present thinking here.

My elder Brother amd me

I am told to pick up my cross and follow Him. What did Jesus die on the Cross for? Was it not to forgive our sins? And I know I cannot forgive sins. 

Significantly. it is now possible for everyone  to appear directly before God by themselves without any need for any another to intercede for them. 

My understanding was when He died on the Cross the temple shield was rent from top to bottom.  This was my albeit not entirely clear conclusion early on. And my understanding was never more adequately upgraded. 

So what do I do now? All that I can come up with is that I am to become more Christ-like. 

All Things Seen 

Came From 

the Unseen

Proof is not acceptable to God, logic also not, only faith. My concern is about strong faith, great faith. 

I am trusting the faith of a child. That is what I am after all. What else can Isay? Whenever I, as well as we all, gain the answer to a question, any question, the answer contains more questions we were never even aware of previously. So what is happening now? 

We, I, for myself, am learning I am more ignorant than I realized formerly. It is as if wisdom has over whelmed me. This is not any new reevaluation. Socrates knew about it. He is quoted as saying something like the wise are full of questions and the ignorant are full of answers. 

Large? See Specific Theory

So how am I going to solve myself out of any of all this? How do physical scientists do it? They conclude the universe is growing larger. Maybe. But is it just that this is what they have only now become aware of, and has nothing to do with growing larger universes at all.

It is like I always thought, if anyone believes
in their heart of hearts that there is no God, then, for direction, they will just have to be their own artificial God, with a peck of trouble on their hands.

Language is all we have right now

Everyone knows a tree is known by its' fruit.  How would anything get into our heads, before learning about the tree of knowledge, but that God would place it there? If we had knowledge we would be like God, which is what the devil already knew. Hello original sin.

I favor verses which force me to focus on the difference between the seen and the unseen worlds. This world I believe, is embryonic to being born again into the spirit. Am I being too logical in doing so? I wonder. Not that St Paul is, but that I may be.

There is officially only one way to gain faith, reading the Bible. And Jesus is the only way. The law came by Moses but Jesus came by grace and truth. 

Every single time

Time fools me constantly every time. Proof fools me when I don't expect it. Logic fools me even when it is logical. The odds fool me when I need them the most. Faith fools me when I have every thing to lose. 

This leaves me trusting Jesus out of time. 

Faith, Hope & Evidence

Faith Unbelievable 

Faith is what it is and taken singly by itself alone, as it should be taken, is without guile of any stripe. It does not even have to make sense. Sense, that is, sense to all or any of us.    

There is no halter to it. There is no bit. Who did God get to write much of the Bible? The most direct opposite of anyone who reasonably could be chosen. And it, all worked out impossibly well.  

....the last days ticking?

Leaving Jesus out of Christianity looks a lot like gathering clouds are growing not far off on the horizon... what with AI masking original sin and all.  

The candy Jesus

I noticed early on that when a preacher held forth before the young crowd, of which I was one but older, that he always extolled the wonderful experience it was to be saved.

The in following sermons it was often emphasized how it was not easy to be saved, that there would be difficulties, so that we had to pick up our crosses and follow Him.

So which is it? Who was going to have their sins forgiven by my doing that? What is this anyway, Christ envy? This same pattern was to be often repeated by others.

Another preacher comes along and tells us this young chappie left his scrubbing the floor Mom so she could pay for his college, from which he made big bucks and never gave mom any thought until he learns she is dead. Throwing his sob racked body across her grave he wept bitterly. Meanwhile quite suddenly he wants know who wants to give their hearts to Jesus?

What! Where did that come from? Separated from the younger students which the youngers gave their hearts to Jesus. I told the teacher, without raising my hand, that that was right. She put her finger to her lips and said for the sake of the children.

I understood then that what the adults meant by pupil talk. It was all for the sake of the children. I was instantly grown up like the adults. I was an adult now and the it was all for the sake of the children, there was no Santa Claus. It explained to me, just like I complained the same  day about coloring books in Sunday School.

Later I asked the God I did not believe in why He allowed me to see and hear all these things. I was blaming God, right? Later I put my heart in logic and discovered I was following the fallacy of the misplaced authority.

So where am I now, saved by logic?. I then run into  several preaching the message of Jesus without any mention whatever to Jesus himself. Now what happens? God is not pleased with proof. Jesus says anyone who climbs up another way, the same is a thief and a robber.

Not much room for myself as well in this scenario. After all logic is another way is it not? But these recent preachers preaching Jesus' message without Jesus ever mentioned looks to me that I am hooked into another way as well. 

So will I have enough faith when I am in the foxhole? Do I have enough faith even now, me of so little faith? 

Logic on the weak spot

Without the awesome, the perfect Christian story my belief is rock solid. But right now I am back depending only on my logic undergirding my belief in God. 

That is a weak position to be in and it is somewhat due to yet another person or persons who proffer their belief based not on God, not on Jesus, or on any mention of Jesus but nevertheless on the teachings of Jesus. 

This logic based belief is is not good because it not only does not jive with Jesus but not even with the entire Christian story. This too is climbing up another way?

Proof is ultimately poof

Matching Wits with God:

And Getting Away with Murder?

No one can prove there is any God, or no Gods or anything not else, they can only prove there is no God or nothing else, everything to their own satisfaction. We all speak from different orbits.

Meanwhile if God could be proved to exist, then what happens to faith then? No need for faith? We can only pleased God with faith, not proof. That is, to please God that is.

Meanwhile if there is no God, then since anyone would have to be their own God else, whose or what  direction could they take? Why, their own, they are their own God and can do anything, go in any direction, and pay their own penalties to themselves. Mebbe that, mebbe then, mebbe next.

Devil on the Attack

Doubts assail me, so the devil is suddenly on the move. At first I was a bit alarmed but I handle doubts differently now. My "I do not matter what" strategy moved instantly to the fore but I would still like some foxhole fight to deal with the matter. 

Great faith and little faith

How the unseen world thru the seen word is perceived over time is revealing. The translation gives away the intensity of belief and faith of the translators. If older translators focused on the spiritual meaning or the technical meaning speaks for the translators. 

Whether one chooses a words like substance rather than assurance, or evidence rather than conviction reveals this change in meaning. We have moved from the spiritual to the technical meanings over time.

The final result is seminarian teaching has moved, at least over a lifetime now, to the conviction that the technical which professes stories in the Bible are not true to only the meaning is true. 

This solves the problem of those with a sophisticated lack of believe. The gulf opens between great and little faith.

Quotebloking with the Quoteblokers

It is not good for me to take offense offered in any manner because if I take them then I ipso facto  become an offensive person. I try to never let anyone know if I were injured because it would reveal a weakness that gives others a signal they can take a humiliation advantage of me in my vulnerable state.

How many?

Newer translations are starting to get in my somewhat slightly more attentive eye. Hebrews 11:1 not the only one by far. Another of my old favorites verses is watered down in the newer published versions. 

I hope to catch up on this in future posts but where Jesus gives us the power to become sons of God stands in opposition to the weaker wordish authority in newer versions. 

The first sign of intelligence is not knowledge but imagination. Albert Einstein  

Quoteblokes

If God is your co-pilot then...... move over!

Quoteblokes

 “Life is full of questions. Idiots are full of answers.” – Socrates

The Spiritual Unseen Side

She left suddenly it seemed, without warning, but thoughts of her persisted that in my sense of her had no way of leaving my mind. 

When I write about the spiritual side I think of Chapter 17 in the Gospel of John where Jesus speaks so often of being one with each other.

I thought of  one mostly as in agreement, but what about one in the spirit? Would no one leave my memory spirit mind? It all would be without time, but continually be in the present.

Is there in this life of the seen no possible way to be conceived without time? This is the Sea of Lethe, forget fullness, a wide river to be crossed into a memory, but without time?    

Personally Startling Understanding

Climbing up another way, the same is a thief and a robber. My very long time understanding is that Jesus was quoted in the Bible as saying this. Also, elsewhere, Jesus said that God draws those to Him who would believe God in Jesus' name. 

Today, my very short time understanding is that there are several well informed and learned scholar scientists who, in my outlook, describe investigating extra sensory mental perceptions of a somewhat similar nature built on the Christian model.

These I conditionally recognize personally as spiritual or being born again in the Christian vernacular. However I cannot be quite sure of this at this early, for me, date.

Useless arguments

The Devil in the Flesh

Truth, or Consequences

Any debate about time is a waste of time. I really do not see the point to advocating a certain whack of time between anything that has occurred, or one so long ago to be taken exactly for granted. How long ago do scholars say some things happened? Too long for any practical meaning or believability. 

I really do not see the point except for wasting a minor confusion over something that does not matter one way or the other in the unseen.

How long ago did Noah do his thing? Sounds to me as if the devil is purposefully wasting believers time in discussions of non-consequence only in the seen, not the unseen.

Time in the Present Tense

Since time does not exist in the spirit, it is a function of the flesh since time only exists in a comparative state.  Christians should perhaps, in my view, be more concerned with eternity. 

I used to wonder why?

Talking to a new pastor, sometime ago now. I remember wondering why he was talking to me the way he was. He told me all kinds of delicate things about himself, reminding me of someone making a confession.

This happened somewhat often at the time so that as I recall the incidents now wondering, why none have happened as often as it did then.

I concluded finally that God was trying to show me something and I would wonder briefly about it? I narrow in on these sort of events thinking about what I thought was supposed to happen. 

I think of myself only as a witness. And I am witnessing only about myself. Others do their own thinking. It is not that I do not care, I am just acting out my version of what happened to me. I don't question it much. Remember I am doing this for my own benefit, just as I am convinced others are investing themselves for their own benefit.

I get a great deal out of objectifying my thinking, subjecting thoughts to the rigors of grammar, and recommend the same to everyone.

Definition of Forever

My body knows full well that the flesh is going to die eventually, but not right now. Therein lies the core of the definition of forever. Time is fooling us all in my inward outlook view. My body will even convince my spirit someday but not right nowday.

My body will excuse a lot of pain, but there comes the time when only if the pain would stop, I forget the someday song and dance jazz.

This is when I tell myself this is the  time. I am in the foxhole and there is no way out but up. But wait, the body knows the spirit can over rule if the spirit had enough great belief.

But hold on for the ride, there is a sin in there somewhere! And I am not sure where. Jesus knows since after receiving the answer to his question to a sick woman whether she believed He could heal her. He told her, then be it done to you according to your belief. This when he said at times further, go an sin no more.

Now what does that mean? There is a mistake in there somewhere and I am not sure exactly what it is but it is a sin in my view because Jesus said there is. 

My understanding right now view as it stands tight now at this moment, is that it may be lost, (to me) somewhere between the great and the so little great faith.

Cares & Worries of this World

A Strange Nigh Out Tonight

Life in the Happy Lane;

Does God Place Ideas in Our Heart?

Where did ideas of the prophets come from? Did God place them in their hearts? Where do dreams come from, sudden revelations?

I understand as one gets older that it has more to do with losing than not. That would be the flesh going silent bit by bit until we forget that we forgot or are forgot. 

Not all of us, but it is enough for the young to write off the old. The young worry they will not have enough for when they are old. They are saving for a time when they will be too tired or disinterested to benefit the way themselves hoped. 

What did B. Franklin say? When one needs money they don't have it.  When they have it they work harder to enjoy it? What does that say? We can't have money, we can only control it.

Accepting is my part

I usually recall a previous problem I've had and rethink it. I never fell for the gospels do not agree routine. If they do not agree that indicates a complete lack of collusion. I could see both sides of that ring a ding.

Once I stopped judging God for the testimony of my then church leaders I was sort of home free. It never occurred to me that I was falling for the misplaced authority fallacy even after I elected logic as a subject a long ago semester. 

After all they were adults, they were elder church leaders and one was even the pastor. They were my then authorities all right but I should of gone directly to God Himself.    

Ins & Outs

I have regretted ever since misplacing my own authority as well. And that is one of my problems I have yet to solve. I may not be entirely accepting God's forgiveness. It may be easy for God to forgive since He knows everything.

I have to learn to fully accept and strike all my other regrets  from my memory also. So I have work to do there.

God hung all the worlds on nothing

Is Time True?

Time is always different. As measured, to us time can only exist in a comparative state. Time cannot stand alone unless it is eternity. Then there is no time except the present tension. 

Time is soon gone...

The point of my interest in time is that when my flesh is in final decay will my belief in the unseen world be  great enough to carry me out of the seen world and into the unseen. One that is, with Jesus, the Trinity, including the Holy Spirit. God knows my spirit and I am counting on the other Helper we were promised, my Paraclete, to speak for me before God. No one has ever seen God. This is my understanding and my belief. That is, that Jesus was given the power to make me a son of God. 

I just want to be where Jesus is. 

When a Day is a Thousand Years

Time to Die

Ever notice a day can seem like a thousand years? It makes me think of it that way. Isn't that like God's way? When the day ends we lie down and go to sleep. This is when we are as close to death, during the night, when our bodies close way down from the exhaustion of the day.

Then when the final day comes it seems like life was over way too quickly. I think I would feel that way even if I really did live a thousand years.

When it comes time for me to die I am certain it will come too soon. Like Rutger Hauer in Bladerunner, I would think of all those days lost, like tears in the rain. 

No Matter What

After figuring it all out to my own satisfaction my conclusion is I do not care what argument is presented. I am confident the Christian story, right into the core of every detail, is true. no matter what.

I used to study a great deal in the Chinese tradition which was and are very impressive, but all I am left with today in my memory of it all is that while carrying a pail of water at night the moon is reflected in the water. Get it? The moon is in the pail.

Oh well, then I turned to a somewhat scientific approach and got quite deep into that but abruptly lost interest when a spokesman, was quoted in print about interest in mind over matter. It had to do with a carnival trick of diving into a pail of water, while riding a horse I think it was. 

There was a west coast idea of this view. The current thinking among the youth at the time was anything goes. They joined one of these churches and until they could vote the sedate elders out, taking over the entire shell of the church for themselves.

So it goes, as someone forgotten famous out of mind liked to say. I say the Christian story is in my very certain mind to be very complex and very true. There are no lose ends. What catches my mind is that Jesus died and rose again. But no other religion has ever even tried to duplicate this twist! 

For Sale

Meanwhile Christianity is the most successful religion we have in the crowd. But there are dimming shadows on the red sails in the sunset. Christianity is not the fastest growing. There is another growing faster. I have to say it, reap for the night is growing. 

My Favorite Bible Chapter

Caught Up in the Reading

My favorite chapter is in John. I like to read it often and last night it was with electrical emotion. Reading is the only official way I understand to gain faith ... is to read the Bible, and keep reading. 

My favorite verses are in Chapter 17 of John, also my favored Gospel. I read it more often than any other. This is the High Priestly Prayer by Jesus. John 17 is engraved on our family cenotaph.

More Action in my Foxhole

All Things Seen 

Came from the Unseen

There is a war going on, without let up in intensity, between this world and the spirit. It is mentioned in Galatians, 2 Chronicles, and elsewhere. These verses are on my favorites list. I have them bookmarked in my print Bibles and in my Kindle.

This world is temporal and the spirit world is eternal. These are the seen worlds and the unseen. If I am on the right track my flesh is decaying day by day while my spirit is growing. Jesus said the flesh would not help me. 

When I was in the womb being born I had no attraction whatever with the information I had at the time. Who needed hunger and cold with the perfect situation I had then? 

Now it is as if I am once again pressing up against a similar series of events taking place. I made my decision. My Granzeemother often reminded everyone, I am told, that everyone should work out their own salvation decisions.

1 Corinthians 1:21

God in his wisdom saw to it that the world would never find God through human brilliance. 

As I alluded  last post, I can only please God through faith. 

Love and Hate

It is better to love than to hate. But the difficulty I've had in the past, as many people have, is Jesus loves and is willing to forgive all. This was formerly to me a problem when it came to the devil and anything evil, most especially to the utmost evil.

Yet Jesus actually loves all, and top of things is forgiving all in the bargain. He is love but He knows the laws of love and the laws of His Father, God. He will not and does not hate. 

Those who do evil are due payment in kind. Since God is in charge of vengeance, and not me, evil doers reap their own reward themselves unless they repent and ask forgiveness. Forgiveness unless it is against the Holy Ghost. 

Hate by itself, does not do good things to our flesh. And this is only a side issue. Even so, hate seems justified against many criminals in their crimes. They are completely consumed by spirits of Satan.  

Their acts of choice have been completely taken over by demons. So while they must be contained in that state,  I would say, there are some who unwisely actually want to release them to do further damage while still in that state.

To be like Christ, I must do like Him to be like Him. This, however, is a picture of how I deal with this question right now. It is as far as my understanding takes me. Still, my faith carries me where my understanding falters.

The verb vibrates

God is not existence itself. He fundamentally simply exists. He exists from beyond existence itself, like a verb. A verb generating vibration, and is not anything like an inert subject, such as or similar to, an idol. If I knew the extent of the knowledge required to understand the desire to exist I would be speaking beyond myself like a "rushing wind".   

Questioning belief and faith

If anyone disbelieved anything about anyone else it would have be to only to the extent of their own belief, or the lack thereof. So even if something entirely unbelievable did happened to anyone else it would have to be very convincing. 

Beholding Eye

Indeed quite a bit more convincing than I could ever imagine, that is for Jesus to do what He did if it were not true and instead just the mere meaning were true.

I think the entire story turned out too perfectly believable for it to be anything than exactly what it all turned out to be, that is to say, to my view it is, and continues to be so.

The rear end of things by the fact itself

I always advise it is not a good policy to at any time take an offense, because if I do I will therefore become ipso facto  an offensive person myself.