From the earliest conceptions

Like Everyone Else

For My Own Benefit

If all things seen did indeed come from the unseen, as I believe self evident, then this material universe came from the spiritual. It follows then that there was a designer long before anyone in my position that ipso facto knows more than I do or I can ever know.

I think it good that I rehearse my meager beginnings to keep firming up the fact I cannot know all the answers since I am at a loss when it comes to the questions  well before I can address answers.

First, in my orientation, is the Father, then the Son and their Spirit together combined make up the Holy Spirit as in John 17.  My position in that Triumvirate today is as a little pup dog to Jesus. 

My dependence on Jesus is total gratitude and I have complete acceptance of this now. From the beginning I have been dumbfounded, thrown time into the wind, in denial, at times hostile, questioning why did You show me this?

I have made an effort to say goodbye to logic but moving to faith without any supporting reasons for doing so. Faith as a child is not far from my pup dog analogy. 

The more knowledge one has, or the more success financially and otherwise anyone has, makes it more, and a good piece more, harder to look forward to heaven, since one could easily think they are already in heaven. 

The more knowledge one has the more doubts one would have. I hope I am not too much of a know it all to not be able to build a strong belief, strong enough to call into shaking any mountain into the sea as of the enough kind of which Jesus spoke.