In order to strengthen faith

Probably a well worn idea, but it occurs to me I could place my favorite verses on file cards. This would group my healing verses together. One never can tell when I might need to access them quickly.  

My second epiphany

 In Manna today I recount my second epiphany accepting the direction that saved me from drowning. I accepted it as one not thinking, but rather more like one watching a movie. I am hard pressed now to avoid the conclusion I had not yet learned to think. Even now I can wonder. After all, reverie is not exactly deep thinking. Much , if not all, of what I am doing here is trying to figure things out. 

Those who seek Me early...

...shall find Me

When did time come from so early?

From in the beginning until the end, time makes everything sad by the act of looking back on the present. So much time is now past looking back on it, all so quickly now, and yet I thought it was going to take such a long time. In an instant it is gone! Yet? God remains, and the future reflects, too wonderful to be fully contained in the present. 

How did we come to exist?

Questions of existence

Seems those somewhat pompous souls whose doubt, of whether Jesus ever existed or not, have gradually grown quiet in the choir in recent times.

We know they themselves existed via hearsay, and likely will continue to exist. But I am doubtful myself whether they will know their spirits will continue to exist, albeit outside knowledge of existence, since God is the fountainhead of all existence.

Words symbols of exchange

 There is an innate belief that words should be free. Whereas other means of exchange, like labor and risk, should be taxed. This means of exchange is money which is a commodity like all other commodities, enhanced by scarcity. 

Difference between gold
and paper is scarcity. 

Misunderstanding money causes all commodities to be scarce rather than money as an exchange. Words rather, are enhanced by expansion as opposed to scarcity. 

Poverty and misunderstandings are the result then of failure to understand money as an easily exchangeable  commodity.

Money could be in the form of gold or potatoes, as it has been, as well as gold. Trouble with words is that not everyone knows the words everyone else uses. However, in the unseen, words would very likely be superseded as symbols by precognitive experience instantly understood as it is exchanged.

It appears to me, as a consequence of all this, that words further force one to employ faith in decision making and all exchanges of ideas about belief via words. I expect therefore,  that God is at the root of this particular importance regarding faith since it is recognized that he is only pleased by faith. 

Does God exist?

Is God a story?

If everything is founded on faith, and proof only achieved to each individual's satisfaction, then I choose my personal decision completely convinced and willing to live or die according to the truth within it as well as outside myself.

We all experience

  our Silent Epiphanies

All questions and answers regarding faith or proof were placed there by the Father of Existence. Ideas such as God, right and wrong, presented for our decision to accept or over ride. The Holy Spirit says that God says in the Old Testament, "choose life". 

Faith, is a decision....

I am approaching logically based conclusions which can certainly crowd faith out of the picture for the unwary. If when I prove God I cancel faith, thus destroying my belief, then there could be a short cut around this.

Life is not a game of chance
 the way God plays it.

Just make a decision? Is God existence? If I am wrong I lose a lifetime. If I am right, I gain eternity.

Right or wrong, proof makes faith useless, there is no decision made. Right or wrong, faith makes proof a pointless game of satisfaction and faith dominates. After all, God hung the world on faith.  

The Mind Controls the Body

Our spirit controls our mind. 

If it is true proof weakens or eliminates faith in the present and faith works in eternity, then what can one conclude? It tells me that time is fooling us all. 

Time is fooling us all?

How fast is time moving? Where is it going? Where did it come from?  Time itself is unseen. Is it a spirit? My conclusion so far is that time by itself exists spiritually, accounting for eternity.

By itself where time only exists in the seen and that only comparatively, that is, compared to something else, both of which are variable in all comparisons to other time parities'. 

Pairs of time are all different. Combined, time pairs seem totally meaningless. Just like Ecclesiastics found, everything is meaningless without God, since God is, by definition, the fountainhead of existence.  

Wisdom is heavy

Too much Knowledge weakens faith

I have to be careful in that with all my reasoning, I might weaken the importance my faith. How lucky, how important is the child-like mind. 

How burdensome it is for those rich in too much knowledge. It feeds doubt and the mocking's of the doubting devil. It also makes one aware of questions better answered simply, by faith. .  

God is a Spirit

God is known as the Father of Spirits

The Holy Spirit or the Holy Ghost

God is the fountainhead of spirits, spirits like Himself, good spirits. There are many spirits and they are contending with each other for our spirit, resting in the existence God has spoken into us. Some say breathe into us, which seems more exact. 

Then, we each make individual decisions. This is the point when decisions other than God's decisions are made and are to be contended. This is how and when evil enters, with spirits who would be God. They want to be God but they only can become their own God.  Some want to be with God and some want to be God. Evil  spirits are opposite to the Holy Spirit. I was once told that God spelled backwards was dog. They wanted me to believe God was a dog. I told them that the devil does a lot backwards and is reputed to able to recite the Lord's Prayer backwards. God is Good. 

Arguing with the Holy Spirit....

My Complications

Blocked Understanding

It took me until late in life, but I finally learned the Holy Spirit wanted me to witness for my own benefit, and incidentally for others. I argued a long time with the Holy Spirit over that issue before an understanding came to me. The reason turned out to be I was asking about others instead of myself. The Holy Spirit was not going to tell me or even acknowledge anything about others. 

All good things come down
 from the Father of Lights

Finally I realized everything Jesus told us to do was for our own benefit. Simple, but clouded by my complications. As for others, that was the concern of those individuals and the Holy Spirit, or whatever spirit they believe in. Only the Holy Spirit convicts and that is not my jurisdiction. Like, was it Peter I think. Jesus told Peter that what He, Jesus, said about John, what has that to do with Peter?

This realization about myself was a great release. Funny, curious now it seems to me,  how I could miss by such a large a mark so widely. Everything Jesus tells us to do is for our own personal, individual benefit. Forgiveness is not first for the forgiven,  it is for the forgiver. How deep and vast is the simple. 

I even remember saying at one time the it was we who were complicated, God, deep and vast, was simple. There is more to everything than we realize. After these intellectual struggles, I faced how critical the fact of faith really is. Faith, whatever one's is in, is all anyone of us really have. So if someone believes in nothing, then nothing is what very likely they would have. It is in the knowing that is the most terrible of all difficulty. 

Witnessing as sharing is also

Witnessing for our own benefit

My mother in her prime ran into a lot of people who seemed offended by her attempts to share her witness. One occasion when my mother was explaining her experience with the Holy Spirit to a relative stranger of our extended family, she garnered a come back that she was getting a little ghostie. 

I supposed that she was talking about the Holy Ghost, but I was not then Biblically self taught as was my mother.