Enough faith, enough belief

Working out my acceptance... 

I can sense conscious intricacies of life dancing around me as much as anyone but just why or how, I cannot say. However I suspect there are those who do and do much more than I.

I envy them their praise and their worship drawing me into their inner fountainhead that attracts me I do not quite know how. How they must love God and His effortless intense concentration of love and forgiveness. There is a secret here that is not a secret, acknowledging faith as a capable power beyond my own concentration.

I believe Jesus when He said that if I had enough faith I could move anything, even fountains into the sea. I am not putting a limit on faith, just my envious inability to do the same. 

I also believe Jesus when He also said to the sick woman do you believe I can do this? When she answered yes, Jesus said, then let it be done onto you according to your faith. 

Some point out that God does not heal everyone. It is not God who did not, it is those who could not accept their healing. In any situation such as this I know automatically that it is myself who is at fault, not God.

 Am I too anxious the enjoy the faith based celebration of physical healing before the full graduation of my body into spirit?