Great belief. My sense is that there is great power the spirit. There are a great many spirits however, both positive and negative. Why I do not know. How great they are I do not know. If I did know, I could not know if there would be more to of it to know further up the ladder or down.
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| Sailing the wild seas no more/ |
My fingers hurt and my feet are numb. I hope to make entries here but I do not know what about or when. But it will be sometime, someday.
Some think the Bible was written in English. This is true really. Meanwhile I was taught Latin in school along with how to write my name on a check. As for Jesus He likely spoke Aramaic, but this is loosely speaking hearsay with me and technically gossip in court.
I Made My Decision My Way
I can no longer concern myself with what can be proved nor particularly what can not be proved. I am only going t decide what I will believe, no matter what, nor when, nor how, nor any whichever around the sun nor in and out between the stars.
I make this public before everyone. Jesus has said if I do this He will make His acknowledgement of me before the Holy Father, God and man. That is something if I must say so.
My God is a Jealous God
God is not a book, God is not a building, nor is Jesus a colorful glass window, nor a statue of carved wood or marble. Jesus is not a baby, nor is He a wooden stake nor reincarnated. He was incarnated. He is One with God. They are One in Spirit. The Holy Spirit is Three is One. And many are all One together. So it is for me. What it is for others, only they speak.
Eternity is Not
I do not generally ask God or His Son or the Holy Spirit to heal me. What I do is thank Him for healing me. If I ever use the now word it means I am in panic mode.
But think of it, I talking to Jesus who is in eternity and telling Him there is little time left to rescue me from this suffering fading flesh ending my life in this seen world.
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| Rest Beyond the River |
To My Life as a Mist
Does it not say somewhere in the Bible do not lean on the arm of flesh? I am not a chapter and verse person. I guess it is the numbers. I only understand words, that is for the most part, less the medical part.
Where better would the devil send his demons? It would not be the bar rooms. They are all safely sleeping their lives away unattended.
And if he could not change believers' belief in God he would attack God's power. The easiest to slide doubt to anyone would be the rich, since they think they got heaven already. But rich is rich. There are the rich in knowledge that provides fertile seeds for endless doubts.
Then devil likes to advertise the hypocritical population, all crowding into churches as they like to do, for company.
Well, if they do, then that is why Jesus was sent. He was sent for the sick, not the well. The sick were not sent to make God sick were they?
So I, wondering at the time whether God as Santa Claus really existed. I figured God, being an adult was in with the pastor and elders, all being adults themselves. I found they however were talking pulpit talk for the sake of the children. That was in high school.
In college I learned in logic class that it was all just a fallacy, the fallacy of mis-placed authority. But I was not out of it yet. Next I learned that God was only pleased with faith.
But if I have logic, that is to say, proof God exists then I would not need faith.
I just had to decide by myself what to believe and who and what to believe in. Jesus said that God would draw me to Him. Then, all I need to do, was to accept Him.
Forgiveness is for My Benefit
I am starting to realize at this late date that I should not be disappointed when things do not happen the way I assume I am entitled to expect.
Especially revenge is the Lord's in events when someone has been taken over by an evil spirit. That individual would however, would have no direction in the matter no matter how horrifyingly tremendous.
It may be, this is my thinking only, that I would wonder if anyone who allows themselves to be taken over by an evil spirit would suffer for that itself in particular alone. This is why I could not trust any spirit whatever, except the Holy Spirit of Jesus.
His Spirit to judge was given Him by the Holy Father and Jesus' judgement is true. I cannot bring any judgement to the matter because I would then be assuming the presence of God.
And that protects me from experiencing any resentments or thoughts of revenge, including hatreds and other spirits contrary to a loving God, who cannot negate Himself.
Living in My Secret Place
Psalms is for praise. Mostly I read it for comfort. Psalm 91is my focus at this present moment. This when I've lived, at one might say, beyond the half way mark.
There my flesh reached a plateau, although I wasn't aware of it the time. but everything slowly and relentlessly, turned against me. Jesus warned me but I did not take great stock in it then.
The flesh cannot help you, He said. Not only that but it can get worse without my even knowing it until I began to wonder, as my mother said before me, another new day, another new pain. 
Worlds Hung in an Empty Space
by the Father of Lights
She was so right! But the truth cannot be told by those who know. Now I see, but I see too late in this world of change. Next is the born again unseen eternity of the spirit. My hope is beside Jesus where all things, now beyond my knowledge, are new.
All Randomness Has a Purpose
I do not believe in coincidences, therefore I do no believe in random creations. What appears as random coincidence is simply because I, nor anyone else, understands them.
I rather think that today's scientific knowledge was largely yesterday's magic. A consciousness knows a lot more than we do, including all the why's, when's and what for's. On the other hand, slowly now, the more we know, the more we know there is more than ever that we don't know yet.
Bottom line: Faith! We do not know. We believe what we do not know. Except of course, if everything is to our own satisfaction.
My walker broke. I look at it this way. Jesus wants me to discover who I trust, Him or my walker.
