...to the scholarly significance of "I am"
Interesting reading my first I am commentary but it was somewhat dull and circular. Never figured out where it was going, so finally set it aside. It will take a lot of digging to discover what so many words mount up to in the conclusion, when one can get there. The silence, in my ears anyway, was deafening. So I am parking it for now. I have a more intriguing issue looming.
In Exodus 3 Moses, who is our authority in this matter, asked God who shall he say sent him?
God answered I am who I am and later in Chapter 15 said, This is my name forever, and this is My memorial-name to all generations.
I have been reviewing what the scholars say about this and will consider their general outlook and questions of validity. After my revelation, in time I recognized instantly I am who I am meant Existence. Therein lies the core reason for these blog entries.
"And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may be with you forever: that is the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it does not behold Him or know Him, but you know Him because He abides with you, and will be with you.
"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:16-18
Probably a well worn idea, but it occurs to me I could place my favorite verses on file cards. This would group my healing verses together. One never can tell when I might need to access them quickly.
In Manna today I recount my second epiphany accepting the direction that saved me from drowning. I accepted it as one not thinking, but rather more like one watching a movie. I am hard pressed now to avoid the conclusion I had not yet learned to think. Even now I can wonder. After all, reverie is not exactly deep thinking. Much , if not all, of what I am doing here is trying to figure things out.
...shall find Me
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| When did time come from so early? |
Questions of existence
Seems those somewhat pompous souls whose doubt, of whether Jesus ever existed or not, have gradually grown quiet in the choir in recent times.
We know they themselves existed via hearsay, and likely will continue to exist. But I am doubtful myself whether they will know their spirits will continue to exist, albeit outside knowledge of existence, since God is the fountainhead of all existence.
There is an innate belief that words should be free. Whereas other means of exchange, like labor and risk, should be taxed. This means of exchange is money which is a commodity like all other commodities, enhanced by scarcity.
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| Difference between gold and paper is scarcity. |
Poverty and misunderstandings are the result then of failure to understand money as an easily exchangeable commodity.
Money could be in the form of gold or potatoes, as it has been, as well as gold. Trouble with words is that not everyone knows the words everyone else uses. However, in the unseen, words would very likely be superseded as symbols by precognitive experience instantly understood as it is exchanged.
It appears to me, as a consequence of all this, that words further force one to employ faith in decision making and all exchanges of ideas about belief via words. I expect therefore, that God is at the root of this particular importance regarding faith since it is recognized that he is only pleased by faith.
Is God a story?
If everything is founded on faith, and proof only achieved to each individual's satisfaction, then I choose my personal decision completely convinced and willing to live or die according to the truth within it as well as outside myself.
We all experience
our Silent Epiphanies
All questions and answers regarding faith or proof were placed there by the Father of Existence. Ideas such as God, right and wrong, presented for our decision to accept or over ride. The Holy Spirit says that God says in the Old Testament, "choose life".
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| Life is not a game of chance the way God plays it. |
Right or wrong, proof makes faith useless, there is no decision made. Right or wrong, faith makes proof a pointless game of satisfaction and faith dominates. After all, God hung the world on faith.
Our spirit controls our mind.
If it is true proof weakens or eliminates faith in the present and faith works in eternity, then what can one conclude? It tells me that time is fooling us all.
Time is fooling us all?
How fast is time moving? Where is it going? Where did it come from? Time itself is unseen. Is it a spirit? My conclusion so far is that time by itself exists spiritually, accounting for eternity.
By itself where time only exists in the seen and that only comparatively, that is, compared to something else, both of which are variable in all comparisons to other time parities'.
Pairs of time are all different. Combined, time pairs seem totally meaningless. Just like Ecclesiastics found, everything is meaningless without God, since God is, by definition, the fountainhead of existence.
Too much Knowledge weakens faith
I have to be careful in that with all my reasoning, I might weaken the importance my faith. How lucky, how important is the child-like mind.
How burdensome it is for those rich in too much knowledge. It feeds doubt and the mocking's of the doubting devil. It also makes one aware of questions better answered simply, by faith. .
God is known as the Father of Spirits
The Holy Spirit or the Holy Ghost
God is the fountainhead of spirits, spirits like Himself, good spirits. There are many spirits and they are contending with each other for our spirit, resting in the existence God has spoken into us. Some say breathe into us, which seems more exact.
Then, we each make individual decisions. This is the point when decisions other than God's decisions are made and are to be contended. This is how and when evil enters, with spirits who would be God. They want to be God but they only can become their own God. Some want to be with God and some want to be God. Evil spirits are opposite to the Holy Spirit. I was once told that God spelled backwards was dog. They wanted me to believe God was a dog. I told them that the devil does a lot backwards and is reputed to able to recite the Lord's Prayer backwards. God is Good.
My Complications
Blocked Understanding
It took me until late in life, but I finally learned the Holy Spirit wanted me to witness for my own benefit, and incidentally for others. I argued a long time with the Holy Spirit over that issue before an understanding came to me. The reason turned out to be I was asking about others instead of myself. The Holy Spirit was not going to tell me or even acknowledge anything about others.
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| All good things come down from the Father of Lights |
Finally I realized everything Jesus told us to do was for our own benefit. Simple, but clouded by my complications. As for others, that was the concern of those individuals and the Holy Spirit, or whatever spirit they believe in. Only the Holy Spirit convicts and that is not my jurisdiction. Like, was it Peter I think. Jesus told Peter that what He, Jesus, said about John, what has that to do with Peter?
This realization about myself was a great release. Funny, curious now it seems to me, how I could miss by such a large a mark so widely. Everything Jesus tells us to do is for our own personal, individual benefit. Forgiveness is not first for the forgiven, it is for the forgiver. How deep and vast is the simple.
I even remember saying at one time the it was we who were complicated, God, deep and vast, was simple. There is more to everything than we realize. After these intellectual struggles, I faced how critical the fact of faith really is. Faith, whatever one's is in, is all anyone of us really have. So if someone believes in nothing, then nothing is what very likely they would have. It is in the knowing that is the most terrible of all difficulty.
Witnessing for our own benefit
My mother in her prime ran into a lot of people who seemed offended by her attempts to share her witness. One occasion when my mother was explaining her experience with the Holy Spirit to a relative stranger of our extended family, she garnered a come back that she was getting a little ghostie.
I supposed that she was talking about the Holy Ghost, but I was not then Biblically self taught as was my mother.
Host of Spiritual Evidence
Haunts Secularists
The claim the lack of secular evidence for Jesus' existence is logic worthy by secularists tangling themselves in a myriad of self interest rationalizations'.
Secular evidence has a long history of being politically corrupted, nothing new there. Because they do not believe in God in the first place, they claim lack of evidence in the second. It is the same as a cleric saying there is a lack of spiritual evidence for the secular. What an obviously tangled web we mortals weave.
Tyranny of the myth
Many scholars today tend to attribute the ancients as dealing exclusively in myths. If it is old then it is a myth. However, many myths have been discovered to be actual events.
Some go so far as to attribute works of the ancients as aided by extra terrestrials or totally accomplished by travelers from another world, only to discover information revealing how our own ancients accomplished what amazes scholars of today.
The Roman Colosseum was, I believe, one of those incidents. Discovered in a in Roman library in London, with drawings yet. This event is not very old either. Astro devices orbiting the earth reveal a body of water connected via canals to Rome, an inland bay not imagined until our day. These occurrences will likely continue in the future. Cities beneath the sea, the list goes on even as the tyranny of myth list shrinks.
Faith Rating Zero
Skeptic Goal
If judgement required to believe the truth of an event is true, to skeptics, is only true if there is no faith needed. In another vein, if something is entirely explainable in a routine manner, then it is easy to believe and is therefore true. But if faith is required, then the situation is untrue.
Jesus Existed and Rose Again
Therefore proof that God exists eliminates faith from the situation, the ultimate skeptics' goal in every event. Nevertheless, there is such a host of surviving documents composed by so many different authors that to claim Jesus never existed is to reveal the constant attraction the skeptics paint far too dubious to consider relevant.
Notes on Existence... from the Web
The answer to whether or not Jesus truly existed is different depending on who you ask. Many historians believe that the man responsible for the largest religion in the world was a real person, while others argue that the man was simply folklore.
I go to church...
...to strengthen my faith, conceptualize it more clearly, as well as to witness and praise God. But, mostly to increase my faith. Instead I found my faith under attack and weakened, actually losing it altogether for a time.
As a result of formally studying Logic in college under a professor, also a minister, I in due course regained by faith beginning with the realization I had based my prior atheism on the fallacy misplaced authority. I have come to believe churchgoers generate, via their individual testimonies, many understandably atheist antichristian beliefs.
However, this reasoning is also based on a fallacy, as mine was. In my experience an overwhelming majority of atheists' views are a result of interacting with churchgoers. One has to have a very strong Christian belief to weather the spiritual struggles I have witnessed in many churches, especially those based on personal fantasies and sheer lack of Biblical knowledge.
